As I’ve said I want my blog to be as honest as possible, this is one of those posts… it might help someone, or you could just think ‘get over it’ either way it’s all good.
For the first time since my injury I feel properly frustrated, I’m now four and half months in casts and for some reason today I hit a bit of a wall. My leg feels good, but my Doc is still a bit like ‘if it goes again we’ll have to…’ and I’m thinking ‘that’s easy for you to say, if it goes again I’ll spend the guts of a year in casts!’. I left my job recently and have a couple of interviews coming up, I start some freelance work tomorrow for a couple of weeks and it should be a really exciting time, but I just wish I wasn’t in a cast anymore. I’ve done everything I was told to do, and I know I was just a bit ‘unlucky’ but I am just a bit fed up with it all now. Trying to impress potential employers, but saying ‘O I can’t do this morning as I have a doctors appointment’ or ‘Do you mind if I’m late in as I have physio’ is a pain in the arse. I know these things happen though and what will be will be.
I’ve now had one Ultrasound that said I’d ruptured (at the start). An Ultrasound that said I was OK (one I paid for after they thought I might of re-ruptured). An Ultrasound that I’d re-ruptured (the second one in the hospital). An MRI that said I hadn’t (but didn’t scan far enough up the leg). Another MRI (this week to scan further up the leg). This must be enough scans for anyone.
There is light at the end of the tunnel, the Doc say another four weeks (which is about three and half ish as I type) but ‘RE-RUPTURE’ keeps flashing before my eyes.
There. I feel better. Sometime it’s good to get it off your chest, part of the reason I did a blog was to be able to do this kind of thing.
Moan over.
HI Mark,
All I will say is read the email that you sent to me and imagine that you are sending it to yourself.
Easy for me to say I know but you said some pretty sensible things to me in a way that made me give myself a bit of a kick up the backside.
It is a frustration because no-one is giving you a consistent response to your question – when can I get shot of my cast and walk properly without worrying that my achilles will rupture again?
They always say that the last few miles of a marathon can be the worst only getting better when you cross the finishing line. Sounds like you’re at the 23 mile mark.
Hang on in there – shit and timing happens for a reason, the good that’s come and is coming from all of this just hasn’t become apparent yet.
Thank you for the support and encouragement you have given to me in less than a week – I hope that I can do the same for you too ;o))
Michelle
cheers Michelle,
Feeling much better about it now, just need a release the blog is good for the good and bad bits of this thing. Better out than in as they say!
Ta for the reply.
M
Mark – I’m sorry this is (still) going on. Hope you don’t have to wait too long for the results.
what can you do 🙂
cheers
M